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Jun. 27th, 2006 | 12:02 pm

entebbe, uganda---> holland,amsterdam--->JFK, NYC


we'll be arriving tomm.
see u soon.

-c

p.s. if u dont have my no. just write me, if u do call!

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thirsty

Jun. 4th, 2006 | 08:54 pm

note to self:


i need to start living as more of a humanist,
and sort of take things into my hands and really be put out there. hello world.
you may take a little or a lot, sip from the cup or drink it to the dregs.

im thirsty i want drink it to the dregs!

xo,
cassi

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May. 31st, 2006 | 05:10 pm
music: Alone with the T.V. - Mitchell brothers

just a month left till i touch nyc. oh man...
i feel like i dont know what im doing anymore.
like i keep gettin fucked over, i keep questioning shit. i dont know maybe ive been in a bad mood for this past wk keep crying to sleep. you called me last night i didn't know what to say. and i know thats it. i just need something new. send me something nice from switzerland.

after i live nyc i will be headed to the mid-west (tattoos!!) hopefully touch cali i will be back in africa on august 12, and i will go to mombasa, kenya to ride camels and swim with dolphins, and see my lover.

xoxoxo

oh yea i hear nyc is gettin pretty hot ...keep cool guys.

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May. 21st, 2006 | 06:32 pm
location: love it here- by elzhi

my dad applied for a job in peru, i mean i really hope he gets this job.
peru is ill. i dont need to be here anymore- these constant black out ever lasting wishes to flee.
oh man my friend is leaving.

im really excited for new york this summer its all i keep thinking.

to be cont...

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i got my swagger back

May. 7th, 2006 | 12:00 pm
mood: sunday morning sunday morning
music: Royal Flush

i take most of everything that comes my way. what ive gained from these past mths.
seizing the moment cuz right now is here. so why not.
i recently got close with this boy Peter from Mozambique hes a diplomat the danish ambassadors son.
i feel so close to him when we talk and stuff and i can see me with him not just because hes from my country.
but because theres chemistry and stuff, but i cant do that. we have a lot of fun stuff. i watch him play soccer and he watches me play soccer (hes better) we play dodgeball together. i like being with him we have fun. he gets all mushy over me when he hugs me he doesn't want to let me go. i just laugh. he ties my soccer sneakers right. im going to prom with him were going in pink and white with lacoste kicks.
we watch horror flicks together he whispers danish in my ears. and he likes to pamper me.

but oh man Kevin!!! i never knew you'd feel that way about me..yesterday you took me out for japanese
we talked for hours laughing telling stories, then we went for drinks, you drove me home asking me to come out later, i told you id call you. we went out that evening you took your daddys white mercedis benz looking cute in your orange polo. we went to the backpackers lodge (blue mangoe) decided we wanted to bounce so you decided you wanted to buy some wine, i told you to get Mateus portguese wine...cuz they didn't have the wine you like. we went to the view point and chilled you broke you car keys trying to screw the cork off. i took a pen pushed it in. you got to have your wine. we watched the city lights and the stars. you were pretty annoyed with the situation (car keys) we were stuck i could see why. you said cassi tell me something that'll make my day. i kissed you instead. it was nice. danny and nicki came to the rescue with the super glue and it worked!!!
why wouldn't it... everything was going great.

youre leaving in a couple of weeks and i know that...whatever. its cool you said fuck that. im going to live for right now.and what we have right now is good.


one more month left...im pretty fucking pysched to get back home. ugandas been pretty good to me, i met some pretty awesome people who i have a deep appreciation for (leah and jennifer) and the guys (keethan ackchay, harry, peter) makes school go by easier.

Lauren S. is coming to visit im psyched, i miss her. i didnt even get to say bye to her in south africa.

last weekend was cool south african diplomatic reception...with lesedi and khumo and wandiswa

this summer... roadtrips and tattoos and friends!

recently my auntie called says my mom is back in the village in mozambique. im really happy for her.


thats it.

-cassi

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Apr. 17th, 2006 | 07:58 pm

time waits for no man

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keepers of the front

Apr. 2nd, 2006 | 10:22 pm

THE WAR
If you ask me
who I am,
with that face you see, you others,
branded with marks of evil
and with a sinister smile

I will tell you nothing
I will tell you nothing

I will show you the scars of centuries
which furrow my black back
I will look at you with hateful eyes
red with blood spilled through the years
I will show you my grass hut
collapsed
I will take you into the plantations where
from dawn to after night-fall
I am bent over the ground
while the labor
tortures my body with red-hot pliers

I will lead you to the fields full of people
breathing misery hour after hour

I will tell you nothing
I will only show you this

And then
I will show you the sprawled bodies
of my people
treacherously shot
their huts burned by your people

I will say nothing to you
but you will know why I fight


this is kind of a cool poem i found made by the frelimo group for the mozambique liberation front made by Armondo Guebaza.

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do your best

Apr. 2nd, 2006 | 12:24 pm
mood: content content
music: beng beng beng by Femi Kuti

what africa has given me so far

hard feet, darker skin, nappier hair, a differrent perspective, yearning, youthfulness and beauty
respect for family and dance.

3 mths left

xoxox

cassi

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jus some things tryin to figure out...

Mar. 7th, 2006 | 09:32 pm
mood: worried worried

maybe i shouldnt be writing a journal entry write with the way i feel right now. overwhelmed nd shit.
i dont get it man. life. i dont think ive ever known someone who had died.
one of my best friends in uganda mom had just died. i fucking adore the hell outta this kid.
its alway a good time. we can talk about anything. last time he was over we sat on my swingchair on my balcony talk about things that matter, family-school-future-past-current.
he told me how his mom was real sick and all. we talked about my mom. my family. i know hes been hurting and shit. his dad wouldnt tell him what she was sick wit. but thats not the point.

i dont know.. she died day after i left to south africa, i talked to kevin on monday he didn't tell me anything.
week before i called him a couple see if he wanted catch a flick right.. i go to the mall i see him driving by kinda scruffy looking. i didn't say nothin tho.

he always telling me how he has to be with his dad otherwise his dad gets depressed. i told him its cool you love your dad. love him. and care for him. but not like that.
its not stable. its like its reversed you he take care of him now.
hes worried if hes out too long that something bad will happen.

all im saying is do things for you..and only you.. comes a point in your life when you gotta start making decisions...living in uganda with your dad is not gonna help shit you know. your about to be 20. oh man do the right thing brother. i cant tell you this in person.

i'll see you tomorrow. and hope you dont flake.

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jay dilla changed my life (R.I.P.)

Mar. 5th, 2006 | 10:17 pm
music: cant hold on ...medaphoar

i dont know mann...

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